| Location | Michigan City, In |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Not Listed? |
| Date of Birth | 22/07/2009 |
| Date of Death | 22/07/2009 |
| Visitors | 1,836 since 28/07/2009 |
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When I found out I was pregnant with Maisie, I was immediatly filled with fear for our unborn child.
We had already lost 2, technically 3 (a very very early chemical pregnancy), babies sense our
daughter Adelyn's birth. That same day my doctor started me on a drug called progesterone and they
had me come in immediatly for blood work.
My blood worked looked amazing - doubling, or more then doubling, every 48 hours.
At 9 weeks I went in to find my numbers were no longer doubling. I knew what that meant, but did
not want to believe it. I started crying and ran upstairs to my docotors office. They tried to
calm my fears and told me at this stage of pregnancy the numbers do not double, but they did start
me on EXTRA progestrone - I was now doing a suppository and a shot everyday.
I made it to 12 weeks. I was thrilled! I wanted to throw a party - I think my husband and I did
actually have a party for two! We were soooo happy that we were finally going to be blessed with a
second child.
Then at 18 weeks we had our ultrasound. The ultrasound lady was not allowed to tell us anything,
however, I could see worry in her face. But, my daughter was moving. Her heartrate was 138, which
I knew was low, but I figured our little one was just resting ... I still believe that.
They could not tell us, at that time, the gender of our baby - and that in itself made me ask
questions. They can usually, almost always, tell.
So... my ultrasound was on a Friday, I figured if there was a problem I would hear from the doctor
Monday. Well... Monday came and went. I did not hear from my doctor until Wednesday. That was one
of the scariest moments of my life. She called my cell phone and left a message that said "Laura,
this is Dr. soandso and I am calling because of abnormalities in the ultrasound. Please call me
back as soon as possible." My heart sank.
I called her and she diagnosed my baby with cystic hygroma. She then said she believes the baby has
Turners Syndrome - which only occurs in girls - that's how I learned the gender of my sweet baby.
We were sent to Indianapolis for further testing ...
There, we found out Maisie had the worst case of fetal hydrops (swelling all around the baby) that
the specalist had ever seen. I also had an amnio to confirm that Maisie had Turners Syndrome - she
was missing on of her X chromosomes.
The swelling in Maisie's body left her with a .1 chance of survival. We were sent home and told to
wait until I feel no movement for 24 hours and then go into my doctor for an ultrasound.
I was horrified, yet, I left Indianapolis with a sense of peace. They gave me answers - no matter
how tragic- I had answers. I now had a name for what my daughter had, something to pray for. I
felt Gods angels surrounding me the entire time, throughout the amnio, they were there. The amnio
was hard - they had a hard time getting the liquid from around her body because it was all in her
... it was painful. However, when I walked out of the office, those angels were guiding me, holding
me - it was almost an out of body expierence. I just held my arms around my belly and told Maisie
she was going to be okay... no matter what, I knew she was going to be okay - there were plenty of
angels watching over her.
We named Maisie, Maisie Renee. Renee is my middle name and also my mom's middle name and it means
"reborn" - which gives me a complete sense of hope.
Maisie was baptized inutero at 20 weeks gestation. We did not know how much longer she would
survive.
I would wake up every morning and lay on my back and wait to feel her move - once she moved I could
go on with my day, knowing I had her for that day. It was heartbreaking.... absolutly terrifying.
And at the same time I had to take care of my 1 year old daughter.
One morning, I woke up and laid in bed, I was 21 weeks pregnant. I felt nothing. Not only did I
not feel movement, I just felt nothing. I knew she was gone. I woke up my husband and told him she
was gone. We cried together. However, I decided not to call my doctor right away. I wanted one
more day of carrying my daughter. I wanted one more day of having both my girls with me. Just one
more day ...
The next morning I didn't call, I just went in and broke down. They did the ultrasound, no
heartbeat.
I was induced that night.
My labor was hard. It was intense. It was painful. It was WAY worse then my labor with my first
child. I am sure emotions played into it, but it was just awful ... I labored all night long and
then...
at 8:40am weighing in at 11 ounces and 8" long, Maisie Renee was born. She had her beautiful blue
eyes just like her daddy and sister, she had perfect 10 fingers and 10 toes with nails- a perfect
button nose. She was and is perfect.
We were able to spend the entire morning bonding and loving and holding our angel. I would not let
them take her for me. However, at about noon we had to say goodbye to the baby we just said hello
to.
Maisie is buried just a few miles from our house at a place called Baby Land. Adelyn talks to her
sister everyday. She is our angel. Truly our angel.
I pray that Maisie is playing in the night sky with her 2 other miscarried siblings and carefully
watching over her sister who we have been blessed with on earth.
No one should have to make a memorial page for their child, but I am so thankful for my friends at
GTS. Your stregnth, inspiration and dedication has really been a blessing to our family.
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I love you.
Just wanted to take an extra minute and let you know how much we love you. I am supposed to be preparing your nursery this month, instead I have to visit you at the cemetary. It just seems so unfair. I love you and I want to hold you. I am feeling anger that I can't hold you. I miss you, Maisie, I miss your kicks. I miss your smell. I miss everything about you. Please stay with me, be my angel.
xX Please pass this on to remember our little ones Xx
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Take a moment of your day
To maybe sit and in your mind
Think of all the precious babies
Yours, theirs and mine
Those whose short lives were over
Before they had really ever begun
Those precious little bundles
Who have made us all a Mum
Their tiny lives have touched us all
And what I want to say
They have brought us all together
Each and every day
The babies whose beautiful faces
In our minds forever will be
Whose names are etched within our hearts
For anyone, the whole world to see
The babies who touched our lives
Who we think of through our tears
I hope in time we will be able to smile
When we remember them through the years
So this week while we remember
All our babies who had to go
We shall show the world we are united
And how we love and miss them so
*•.♥ ¸.•*xA not from heaven*•.♥ ¸.•*x
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A Note from heaven*•.♥ ¸.•*x
Don't worry for me mummy, i am safe up here
I have no pain any more, but you have it is clear
I know your heart is broken, for me you must not weep
I am with you always, but in the after life i sleep
In the day light i am with you, i bring the morning sun
To melt away your sadness, until the dark night comes
At this time i am with you also, shining o so bright
I am the brightest star you see in the sky each and every night
So don't worry for me mummy, in life i loved you so
And i am oh so sorry that it was my time to go
I love you still and always will, we really did not part
my memories are always with you deep inside your heart xxx
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For my sweet daughter, Maisie
By: Laura Phegley
To the daughter I’ll never know
The daughter I will never see grow.
The daughter with her daddy’s eyes
We said hello and goodbye on July 22nd 2009.
I held her tight
Her body against mine
For such a short time
The umbilical cord still attached
I was still her lifeline.
I held her and smiled
I held her and cried
A million emotions
Running through my mind.
I smiled for I was holding an angel
A little girl that I did love
I cried because I had to let her go
And be with her father above.
I weep for the memories we’ll never share
The diaper I will never change
The bedtime stories we’ll never read
And the kisses we’ll never exchange.
I never saw you laugh
It just breaks my heart in half
Shattered.
Torn apart for the life you didn’t start.
However, your soul I did know
We connected long before that fateful day
We’ve been together from the very start
Long before you ever went away.
I’ll never forget your nighttime kicks
There are many memories we do share
Cookies and milk at midnight
And plenty of silent prayers.
I love you forever, my sweet Maisie
You are never far away
I will hold your memory close
Each and every single day.
Handsome Angel
You have been such a special little person. I hope that you are having a wonderful time with Emma and all your angel friends. I am sure that you are watching your family and friends from up above. Please know that you are missed by all your family and friends. Take little angel.
Hugs!
Sending hugs and kisses right up to you my sweet forever daughter. I miss you more then words can say and I LOVE having this place to write down my thoughts to you. You're my special angel, my amazing Maisie. Please continue to watch over and protect your sister, Addie, and unborn siblings. We all love you my darling sooo much!
They say memories are golden,
Well, maybe that is true;
I never wanted memories,
I only wanted you.
A million times I needed you,
A million times I cried;
If love alone could have saved you,
You never would have died.
In life I loved you dearly,
In death I love you still;
In my heart you hold a piece
No one could ever fill.
But now I know you want me
To mourn for you no more,
To remember the happy times
Life still has much in store.
Since you'll never be forgotten
I pledge to you today;
A hallowed place within my heart
Is where you'll always stay.
If tears could build a stairway
And heartache make a lane;
I'd walk the path to heaven
And bring you back again.
Our family chain is broken,
and nothing seems the same;
But as God calls us one by one,
The chain will link again.
Love you, sweet Maisie.
My sweet girl
I just had to stop in and leave you a message today. Your cousin, Fin, was born just two days ago. I know you helped make her enterance into the world a safe one. You are our angel, Maisie. We ask that you continue to watch over your sister, Adelyn and your cousins Ruby and Fin. There is a reason for your death, you did not die in vein my sweets, we know you left us so you could protect us in a much deeper and more important way. We love you, miss you and think about you every second of everyday. You are our life, Maisie and we love you so much my sweet angel daughter.
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